I don’t know what it is about being a girl but as we grow we are handed all these ideas about what we are and how we are supposed to be… I’m sure part of it we do to ourselves… I don’t know really… but either way, we are to be sweet, pretty, smell nice, soft, quiet, maternal, and delicate… and I enjoy being those things, I really do but as I get older I’d like to think that I’m not just sugar and spice and everything nice but there’s also a little dirt and fire… piss n vinegar as my grandpa used to say… and if we’re being completely honest there’s always a little b&*#sh*t mixed in just to keep things interesting… in a good way of course. I hope that I am a little wiser this year, a little less complicated, and a lot healthier in mind, body, and spirit.
In my quest for a better me I am trying to remember to take five minutes and do something I enjoy…I love most things I do during my day but I have really come to appreciate this time to write, so here I am. I feel like coming here and dishing about the good, the bad, and the ugly is really therapeutic. Once I put it all out there I don’t have to carry it around anymore.
Today has been mellow but still a challenge. I’m preparing for changes that are hopefully positive but scare me none the less. I know that change is inevitable, like it or not, but I hate the idea of “rocking the boat” when things are ok. I know I should aim for excellent but lets be real not everyday can be excellent so some days I am perfectly happy with ok. Ok is much better than not ok…
Later the same day…
Well today has gone from ok to an amazing day. I got some wonderful news this afternoon. Two people who mean a great deal to me and my family got engaged today. It makes me so happy to know my friends are happy. It is one of those warm and fuzzy things, I guess. To know that the people I care the most about are doing well is a very good feeling…it’s red wine and chocolate for the soul. Congratulations my friends! I love you both and I wish you nothing but happiness and a life full of warm and fuzzy moments.
“May you never lie, steal, cheat or drink.
But if you must lie, lie in each other’s arms.
If you must steal, steal kisses.
If you must cheat, cheat death.
And if you must drink, drink with us, your friends.” xoxoxoxox